My Ball Cap

zeimusu-Baseball-cap (1)My ball cap was missing from its peg in the entry hallway.

There could be a number of reasons for this; some of my own making, some not.

So I called across the house, “Hey, did you throw my cap away again?”

My wife called back, “Why would I throw it away?  That is something YOU should do.”

She hates my cap and I understand why. It was a wonderful cap on the day I bought it but that was then.  Now it as faded and worn as an old dishrag..

“So where is it?” I asked.

“Check all the usual places,” she answered

So I first checked the kitchen trash then the refuse cart in the garage. I checked the office wastepaper basket and not finding it there I looked in the laundry room trash.

That is where I found it.

“You threw my cap away again,” I yelled.

“I only put it where it belonged,” she yelled back.

Like I said, she hates my cap. She hate almost everything I love to wear.  She despises my favorite t-shirt.  She loathes the only jeans that fit me and is embarrassed by my best pair of tennis shoes.

I suppose she hates these things because she is jealous. She knows how much I love them and perhaps she just doesn’t want to compete.

But I still love these things and it is not just liking, it truly is love.

You see, the thing about love is not only do you become accustomed to what you love but what you love becomes accustomed to you. Whether it be old clothes or old lovers, what you love molds itself to you in the most intimate of ways.

That is what my cap and I have done. We braved both bitter cold and summer heat together. We witnessed countless sunrises and sunsets and over time, in the course of all we have been through, we worn ourselves into each other.

I wear it wherever I go.  Its color and logo speaks to who I am.  Even people who do not know me by name, know me by my cap. I am not who I am without it.

My wife wants to get rid of it because it is old and faded and in her view, it makes me look ridiculous. But I don’t give up on things that easily.

I fell in love with that cap at first sight.  New things always promise impossible dreams and for a while new things deliver but then something newer comes along to convince you that the dream you once held is not worth holding anymore – and you toss it away to take up a new one.

It is like we are constantly throwing away our dreams.

Well, I don’t do that. I stick with my dreams and if someone wants to throw them in the trash, I will dig them out.